Drifting Aimlessly

Will time erase this feeling?
Does time truly heal?
I feel like I'm floating
Sleepwalking through life
It all feels so unreal.
If each end is a new beginning
When does my beginning start?
All this time, drifting, waiting,
Is tearing me apart.

Let's Explore

What would it be like to love you?

Would our passion burn fiery and fast?

I suppose time will tell but I wonder,

could something this great ever last?

I imagine an epic adventure,

together it surely would be.

Perhaps all that heat would just temper

this bond between you and me.

Oh how I want to explore

the world, and explore it with you.

These feelings I cannot ignore

for life, adventure, passion, and you.

Can I Trust You

How can I trust the world
To not break my heart in two
How can I just be honest
When I don't know what they'll do

Trying to figure it out on my own
Can't reveal what's inside
I feel my heart start to explode
Whenever I try to hide
Try to hide
How I feel
Can't reveal
What is real
Should I try

How can I trust the world
To not break my heart in two
But I don't need to trust the whole world
I just need to trust you

Just Friends

I want to tell you I love you
I hope you know that I care
I'm not sure of this feeling
I'm not sure if it's real
I'm so scared

Scared to make a mistake
Scared to ruin what we have
Scared to take that leap again
Maybe turn something good to bad

How can I trust my heart
When it's been so wrong before
Do I even know what I want
What my soul is longing for

Why is the heart so complicated
Why can't my soul fly free
To love and to live without reserve
To be who I want to be

I want to tell you I love you
But I'm afraid that I can't

Starting Over

Wouldn't it be easier to stay
I think to myself
Would I be okay
Could I be content
With just good enough
It's not so bad
My life's not so rough

But I deserve better
I know that I do
A life that is mine
That's happy and full

It's so hard to leave
and start over
I wish that I knew what to do
Turning my life upside down
but it's not over
It's time to start anew

And now for something completely different

(Silver Bells holiday hangover version)

Spinning sidewalks
Slippery sidewalks
cause I had too much booze
at the holiday party last night
Fancy cocktails
Then some beer pong
Midnight champagne toast
Shouldn't have had all those jello shots!
Hangover
From hell
It's Holiday party season
White elephant
gift exchange
Got my tacky sweater on!

:D happy holidays everyone!

Hunger for Adventure

A gnawing ache
Nearly a carnal need
A feeling like you haven't eaten in days
A passion you must feed
Desire that won't go away

I yearn for more
A life of adventure
For the world beyond these walls
Beyond these hills
A world I need to see
I need to feel!

There's so much more I've yet to see
So many things I haven't done
It's time to take that leap
I've only just begun!

New Beginning

A clear blue sky
an open heart
I'm longing for a brand new start

Don't know how
Don't know when
My life will begin again

A lonely road
I'll have to roam
Until my heart can find a home

Where to go and what to do
It's not so clear from this view

But I know it's time to start
It's time to begin
To live the life I want and need
I've got to try again

It's time to make a new beginning

Untitled

A melancholy rain,
pours down the window panes.
Why am I still here?

I'm dying inside,
I'm crying inside,
I'm screaming inside!
Can't let it all out.
I need to let it all out!
Just let it out!!!!

But I can't.
I have to hide it
have to fight it.
Keep it all in.
Don't let them see!
But everyday it's killing me.

Why am I still here?
Should I disappear?
I could disappear.

Keep smiling. It'll be fine.

Keep that smile up.
Put on a pretty face.
Don't let them see you hurting.
Fix your hair.
Put on some makeup.
Don't let them see you cry.

I'm not alone.
I know I'm not.
So why does it feel that way?
I feel like screaming!
Feel like crying!
I want to run away!!

Just make it work.
Get through another day.
Pretend like everything's fine.
You can do it.
Just try harder.
It's all in your mind.

I'm sure it will get better.
Something's gonna change.
But when?
When!?!

When will my life be not depressing?
When will my life be what I need?
When will I not feel the weight of it crushing me?
It's crushing me!!

And I'm alone!
All alone in a room of people.
Alone with my thoughts
That are so hard to control.

Can't you see me hurting?
Can't you hear my screams?
All I can see are fading, far-flung dreams.

Starlight Serenade

Just a little starlight
you and me
that is all I really need
Quiet, slow and real
I love how you make me feel

Tranquil, supine repose
Let's explore where this could go
I breathe easy
You make me feel at home
Just a little longer
I don't want to go

Starlight
you and me
Is this how life's supposed to be
The world goes by
and here we lay
enchanted by this
Starlight serenade

What Would I Do

What would I do
if you
just went away?
If I were alone
would I be okay?
How can I know
which path to take?
What if I made a mistake?

Oh how I wish
there was a sign!
Something to help
make up my mind.

I need a change!
I need it now!
Somewhere!
Somehow!

Why must every day
leave me confused?
Should I run away
or stay here with you?

What would I do
if you
and I parted ways?
If I were alone
would I be okay?

Can't Be Caged

(I suppose this one is much more "rock" inspired than the rest of my songs.)  :)


You wanna tell me,
wanna tell me what to do?
You wanna make me,
make me love (you)?
You wanna keep me,
wanna make me stay?
Baby don't you know
that I can't be caged?
Noooo I won't be caged!

Oh baby baby
can't you see?
If you want my love
you gotta set me free!

Can't hold me back!
You won't keep me down!
You'd better watch out now
cause I don't mess around!

You can't cage me!
You won't keep me!
Baby don't you know?
If you want me to stay,
that I,
I can't be caged!
Noooo I won't be caged!