This Game

I hate to love the way I feel
sometimes my life seems so surreal
I'm loosing all that I have gained
why do I have to play this game

To show you who I really am
to try to understand
why I say the things I do
and act the way they want met to

I try to change what I can't see
but I loose the love they gave to me
I don't know why they stay the same
why do we have to play this game

To show you who we really are
but you say we've gone to far
"my love is real but you can't see
what your hate has done to me"



~ Andi Weaver (2003)

I Am Weak

Lift from me this confusion
this pain inside my head
my walls are closing in around me
as I lie awake in bed

& I am weak
I can't do this alone
I can't speak
I don't want to go home

I don't know how to hear
I don't know how to see
I don't know how to feel
I don't know how to be

You can see in me
what I can't see
the soul through my eyes
that wants to be free

& I am weak
you know how I feel
the love deep inside me
that wants to be real

(written by me 9-24-03)

Can You Hear My Voice?

I wrote this during the summer "Real Life" youth group retreat in 2003, at Westminster Woods.  I wrote a couple songs that summer.  This is one of them.


Can you hear my voice
Can you see my soul
I want to know you now
I need to know you more

I've tried so hard to make believe
that I can do this on my own
but I can't live without you anymore

Can you hear my voice
Can you feel my soul
Do you see my face
Are you in control

Cause I've tried so hard to make believe
that I can do this on my own
but I can't live without you anymore

Are you with me now
Where do I need to be
I need everything you are
It's all or nothing for me

Love Is More Than Words Can Say

Love is more than just a feeling,
more than words can say.
Love is how you live
each and every day.

Love can make you laugh,
make you want to cry,
make you want to live,
& without it, want to die.

Love is more than just
laughter and good times.
It is loving through the bad days,
when nothing seems
to go your way.

Love is a cup of hot chocolate
when you're feeling bad.
Love is a shoulder to cry on,
when you're feeling sad.

Love is laughter in the rain.
Finding joy admits the pain.
Love is more than words can say.
Love is how you live each day!

What this blog is for

Recently when going through a box of some old stuff, I found a notebook full of songs and poems I had written in high school.  I thought it would be cool to share them and hopefully write some new ones as well. A short one - "Blank pages of a satin covered diary one day, found their way under my pen... here's what they had to say."  Thanks for reading!