Alone

What is this feeling, I fear, I'm alone again
No one understands why I'm the way I am
All of these things inside keep running through my head
and now i fear I'm falling further away again

I am alone in this world of no tomorrows
all alone i this world of broken promises
to live behind a mask of happiness
while melancholy voices run through my veins
run through my head

I need to break away and leave this world behind
to live the dream, the life
that keeps running though my mind

How can you say that you're her friend
when you don't hear her
you're trying to see the world
through a rose tinted mirror

and I'm alone
lost in this hypocritical world
all alone
and you don't care.

Lyrics in my heart and mind.

(Lyrics from different songs I like)

There's a song that's inside of my soul...

I believe in the sun
even when it's not shining.
I believe in love
even when I don't feel it
I believe in God
even when he is silent.

I'm giving my life to the only one who makes the moon reflect the sun.
Every starry night, that was His design.

How can I keep from singing your praise?
How can I ever say enough?
How amazing is your love!

Inspiration for your day, written by people other than myself  :)

~Andi

You Don't Know Me

Oh to be an angst ridden teenager... sometimes I have to laugh at myself. Though honestly, those feeling were real back then so I shouldn't try to pretend they didn't happen.

Here is something I wrote in the fall/winter of 2003.


You don't know me!
You can't change the way I feel.
You can't hear the voice that's screaming inside.
You don't know the me that's real.

How can you say you listen
to what I have to say
when all you do is scream at me
when you don't get your way.

I hate the way you make me feel,
the hate I have for you.
It's not the way it's supposed to be,
don't wanna talk to you.

You make me wanna end it all.
You make me wanna scream!
You make me wanna say and do,
what I don't really mean.

These things I know I cannot change,
these things inside of you.
The hate I have will slowly fade.
Will nothing change in you?

I know I shouldn't feel this way.
You leave me with no choice.
I can't stand to be around you.
I can't stand to hear your voice.

You don't know me.